As I keep my weight loss portion of this blog under password protection, only because my friend Jen who is my “trainer-motivator” etc., lives 3000 miles away and that is where we create dialog. But when I moved into my apartment I was 25 lbs heavier than I am today. Was it because I was lazy, not so much
I struggled the last couple years between working and school full time I had very little time for me, very little time to do anything but sit on my ass and work or study all day long almost everyday. I sat at a desk on average 12 hours a day, had 2 hours of commute in a car. So life got ahead of me. I was also not happy in life, imagine that. I tended to eat my unhappiness away, amazing I take all things that made me unhappy out of my life and I am a new woman. I love working out, I love that my butt, thighs, stomach are getting smaller. I love getting sweaty and out of breath by pushing myself. I do hate that my asthma and the plantar fasciitis issues I have tend to creep back up just as I am getting my fitness on.
I have never been lazy, ever, my energy was just focused on trying to stay above a 3.5 GPA and not me physically. Also going fully vegan is helpful, it is very hard to eat bad on a vegan diet. Giving up cheese, sour cream and ice cream makes for a very healthy diet. I do not crave things, sweets are few and far between, if I have something sweet it is a coconut bar made with brown rice syrup.
I feel great, I can start to look at myself in the mirror and not be repulsed, I have goals that I am working on each day. 25 pounds gone that I am never allowing to come back. I still have a ways to go but I am off to a great start.
I look over at my super secret blog about when I was meeting with my therapist and my biggest worry was eating away my worries, now that isn’t even a worry. I am happy with my life, optimistic about my future and for once in a long time really love being me. I am in a good place.