And so it goes….

Ms. C is pretty much at the end of her strings with patience. See I am this thing you call a perfectionist, the insane crazy type. Not at all sane when it comes to getting things done in a timely manner. Sometimes I expect others to be on board, but honestly not everyone can be as great as I am. This Crystal in the last year is not the Crystal I have known my whole life, not at all patient and just royally pissed off at the world. Seriously I feel like I am 16 again and hate everyone and everything. My patience for people has become null and void. I sit here putting together my Proof of Claim to bring down to the Bankruptcy Court after class so we can at least be “included” in the creditors that are owed money from HE & PG Realty LLC. You know covering our asses.
All I really want in the world is to run. Something I have been particularly good in my life, you know with moving over 35 times in my short 28 years, the easiest thing was always to leave. Pack up and leave seems like a dream right now. The day that Neil and I can correctly get out of this nightmare of a condo and leave will be the happiest damn day in my life. I thought I was smarter than this to make decisions that would haunt me for years.
I want to be happy, I want to be CRYSTAL. I really miss her. And the fact that this stress is causing stress between me and the one man in my life that has never let me down is even more disturbing to my heart.
I do not feel like myself anymore and if this is what MYSELF has become I do not want any part of it. I am so down with the stress levels in my life causing me the biggest headache.
I have to keep telling myself that everything will work out sooner or later, if not I may just take a lot of people down with me in my walk of distress.