Besides Neil who do I have? No one really. I have a family that wants me around when I am the good one, the one that does favors for everyone because that is what Crystal does, tries to please everyone. Now my sister is back from Florida and all of a sudden wants something to do with family and Mike is living downstairs then I am the outcast once more.
Well I didn’t get someone knocked up after knowing them for 2 months and I wasn’t knocked up.I do not only contact my parents when I need something.
I am the good one. I am the one whose life is the in the best place yet I feel estranged once more.
Even my mother text me to say: Going with Grandma, haven’t seen her in 2 weeks, going with her 5 minutes from my house, the only time she saw me was for me picking her up from the airport in the last two weeks. Yesterday was one of my days free when I could have went somewhere.
Always excuses and always cancelled plans. What else to I expect from anyone. All this shit does to me is push me further away. I don’t need it nor do I want to deal with it. And as an adult, the thing people tend to forget I am I don’t have too.
I am one of those people that tends to A-OK alone… I don’t really need people around and I am a loner by choice. choice being not wanting to deal with ignorance most of the time. I consider myself fairly intelligent and there are somethings I know more about than others, regardless of age. I know things.
I am tired of being shot down, tired of people asking from me but never wanting to do something with me that does not only benefit them. I would be all to happy to pack up Neil and I and move as far away as humanly possible.
I can’t deal with bullshit anymore. I am far to good a person to deal with it….