I Heart Peanut Butter

WOW after emailing with Neil at work realized that Febuary is a pretty busy, action packed month and it is so damn short…Next thing we know it will be March. We are looking for tickets to go to Tampa the first weekend of March and I wish I still knew people who worked for airlines and was able to get buddy passes. On United I would all the time when I was living in Colorado.
But there is a lot of things going on this month and I hope I don’t forget anything…

Today we are suppose to get a tiny bit of snow but the issue seems I feel down my stairs at home twice this morning, ruining one pair of pants and then getting another pair wet, I said screw it and put jeans on..Called my boss and let her know I would be a little late and yes I would be wearing jeans into the office today. She still comes in my office this am with a copy of the dress code and highlighted that jeans are not acceptable any other day then Friday, and adds that if I continue this that we will loss dress down Fridays…GOD DAMN…I feel, got wet,runined a pair for jeans and now my back is killing me and I still need to get harassed about the fact that I wore jeans…..

I leave work early today to go to a doctor’s appointment then off to the gym and then home to clean and make something yummy for dinner…..

So how do you judge a girl that drinks one to many drinks and then needs to pee on the side of the highway…I must have zero shame, because I ended up in a picky bushes lot and scrapped and scratched myself all over…That was just Friday night.
I seem to have become the clumsy girl I was once before..
Friday night Neil and I had ventured to the land of “Studentville”, been awhile since I have ventured to Somerville. I was there all spring and summer and that was the last time. We went to “The Independent” a cute molding covered walls and wood….BAR. We went because my dear loves loves loves Mashups. What are Mashups you ask? Mashups are when two different genres of music are mixed together. Finding the perfect tracks with the same BPM is hard enough when it is the same genre but how about when it is 70′s disco with country music….
I took a handful of pics that night..Well maybe close to 125 pictures which a great amount are posted on my Buzznet page…After 5 G&T’s and a couple shots.. What was I thinking drinking Hennessey…I am not a Thug….We headed home. Me having to pee after the long detours in the evening hours that Boston is known for and Neil deciding to take the long way home..We arrived safe in Clinton at almost the four o’clock hour….. AM that is …
Surprisingly I was not hung over at all on Saturday and we enjoyed the morning just bumming around the house. Headed to Providence around 2pm to head to the International Car Show. AHhhhhhh I love cars. I love cars more then anything else…
decided on a few cars as my next ones…
depending on when I buy a new car..
If I am looking at my currant price range that I am in It will be either a Mazda Speed6, Pontiac GTO, Mustang GT or Acura RSX…
If for some reason I am making more money by then it will be a Chyrlser 300 w/ 6.1L Hemi, a Cadillac CTS -V or a Passat V6 4 motion or Dodge Charger w/ 6.1L Hemi……

One the way back home all I wanted was to drink a very much yummy Smoothie…I think the only thing the drinking the night before did was make me thirsty….So I figured hey we can stop at Ben and Jerry’s at Salomon Pond and get a smoothie there. It was 9:10pm and the mall and all stores were open for another 20 minutes..The damn teeny bop blond bitch decided since they cleaned the blender that they were not going to serve anymore drinks. GURRRR we made a special trip to get a smoothie….
So we settled for a granata machine drink and headed home….
Saturday night was an early night so we were up and adam very early on Sunday…Woke up and bummed around, cleaned out the small bedroom and put books aside for me to later sell.
Didn’t get dressed until about 2:3pm…Lazy bums were we…
Went to the movies to see “Last Vacation” it was funny…Good way to spend a rainy Sunday afternoon…Headed home and entered all the books for sale on Half.com and I have already sold one…Awesome…
Money making is always fun and working at Scholastic makes it so I pay 50% for our books…Then sell them for the going rate….Not a bad deal….
Here it is Monday and I am at work..Quiet day here….
We are suppose to get snow tomorrow , what else is new but besides that this has been a very mild winter in these parts…No complaints..
Tonight I have an eye appointment…Looking into contacts once more…Of not just get new lenses in my new frames……

Happy Friday !!!!!!!!!!!
Well I am at work and the day is going ok…Afternoon meeting will make the afternoon fly. Wow ten minutes till lunch time.
Tonight off to Somerville with Neil , will be great to go out, I never do that anymore. I truly can’t wait until Summer when I can throw on a jean skirt, stappy heels and a cute top and just enjoy the outside seating area @ Ralph’s. That is my favorite part of summer except that I have 5-6 weeks off and I can go to the beach every day. I am so dreaming about summer, I hate the excess clothing I must wear in the winter, most days I forgo the use of a winter coat and just freeze.

Tomorrow we are checking at Motor Trend’s New England International (oxymoron if you ask me) Car Show. I am very much excited, cars are about the only things I get truly excited about I love the look, the power and knowing as much as possible about the beautiful auto’s. I think it runs in my blood, my father was a street racer when I was a baby with his 1972 Plymouth Roadrunner and my mom has a deep love for fast cars. I grew up helping my grandfather in the garage working on cars and always was fascinated by any thing with an engine. Then with my share of POS cars I learned how to work on them, to know what was wrong with them and on a good day I can tell you what a noise in any car is. I have replaced Alternators,water pumps,belts,starters and other random car parts….I love, love cars….

Then hopefully my brother is going to come over on Saturday night, he wants to bring the new gal in his life, seems odd to me. I am use to him with Mariann but hey as long as this girl is nice, treats him well and over the age of 18 I am ok with it. It seems he finds the need to meet Neil and approve. I ask what is not to like about him? Nothing.

Then hopefully just relaxing this weekend….
I made dinner up in the Crock-Pot for tonight…I think I may start posting recipes and such sine I seem to cook somewhat decent…..

Off to eat lunch…

Invasion of the stalker/lurker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I think the time has come for me to draw some attention to this. Seems odd to me that I get a hit from Denver 1-2 times a day from the same IP address and it isn’t that of a fellow Thursday Thirteen blogger. Also it seems on the weekends I then get a hit from Greeley Colorado from the same IP Address . To me it seems common sense as to whom it may be, hell it could be an old friend, an ex or maybe a crazy chick or two that knew me out there. But I think it is rude that this person spends so much time on my page and never comments.
What made this even stranger was that last week I was going to change my URL for my page to something else besides http://crystalstailsmeowww.blogspot.com/ , well I tried it out for a couple days and then realized that my page was no longer linked at any other site and it would have taken a whole lot of work to inform all the places that have my blogspot address.
So I changed it back to the current address. During that time the same IP address was still hitting my page but coming over from Neil’s blog. But on his blog there was no referrer they had went straight to his page, because they couldn’t get to mine.
So here I am inspector gadget wondering what I will find out next. Started to take my name off most things online and changed some email info like passwords. Cause truthfully I trust very few people. Then today one of my email addresses kept send over that I had requested to change my password. Damnit someone is trying to get into my email also….
Seriously if the lurker is watching over my page….Stop…If it is something innocent then comment if not…GO AWAY…
The technology of site meter and extreme tracking make it very possible for me to be able to see who, when and where people are looking at me and I see you…….

What a cold day it is outside. Today it is cold and we are expected to get 5-10 inches of snow. After the last couple weeks of Spring like weather we know are blessed with winter once again. Neil liked to believe that the winter was over and I was like Febuary has not even began yet and normally that is the most snow in the winter.
It is just about 10am and the snow is falling.
This weekend was nice and relaxing.
Friday night went to meet up with my friend Riz and Krista, followed by a few of there other friends. Neil and I were just kinda in the mood to hit up a few places in the Framingham area and when it was mentioned they were all heading to Boston, we were not dressed nor ready to deal with Boston. So he and I went and hit up Tin Alley got some food and drink and then home.
Saturday was warm and sunny outside. Went to my folks for awhile and then my mom got touchy about a certain subject and I was not in the mood to deal so we headed back to Massachusetts. We had picked up the most perfect Tuna steak and crab legs at the Grocery store earlier in the day. So the dinner was made… Tuna Sashmi.semi seared style, Brown rice with Pine nuts, asparagus and crab legs. It was a very yummy dinner. Made Neil think we should charge and do dinners at the house for other people. What a wonderful idea….Short of not having a food permit…
yesterday decided to throw together a Chili in the crockpot to have something warm to come home to…Went Ice skating in Providence. It has been about 7 years since I have been on ice skates and by the two times I feel you would see that. One time bringing Neil with me….
Man my left side of my body hurts today….
Stopped for little bit of shopping at the Wrentham outlets and then off to the house to eat some damn yummy chili and watch a movie…
Overall a lot of driving but relaxing weekend…

Ok I am stupid…Forgot one major part of Saturday and Sunday !!!!!!!!!!!!
Beth had her baby. The baby was healthy and wonderful and Beth had a few complications but she is better now.
Cassidy Elizabeth 8 lbs 6 oz 22 inches long

Cassidy and I

So today was the 1st of 2 days of the semi-annual Scholastic Book Fairs Revenue Meeting. Gotta love it, under normal conditions I would love it because it is free things, shirts, books, two days of fun out side the office and FOOD. Not your normal run of the mill food but Prime rib and Yummies food. They feed you all damn day and I used all my points by lunch time today. But Dinner through me over damn it. Anyways I was feeling overly fat and disgusting and wishing I could develop bulemia…..So I went to the gym and worked out like I have never made myself work out , all while chanting ” You dumb fat bitch” Yeah I am sure that isn’t nice to say to myself but it sure kept me on level 12 on the elliptical for almost an hour and then 30 something minutes of core exercise.
Anyway tomorrow is another day of meetings and I am not eating anything of there’s except salad, why can’t I find a damn person to smack me if I go near the dessert table…lol

Speaking of work I somehow over the last couple weeks have become the Match.com Guru. I have three lovely women I work with, asking my advice, critiquing their Match.com profiles and taking and editing pictures. Asking to borrow clothes for their first “Coffee dates” and so on…
So I figured this can be a business oppertunity for me. Start a business where I help women portray themselves as the wonderful, sexy fun loving women they are and avoid the words ” I am busy so that may make time with me hard” or ” I have been screwed over in the past, I need someone who is real” . Cause most ladies do need to know that is not what a guy wants to hear. He wants to meet a confident,sexy smart women that you are and not the one that is so bitter from past experiences. I would tell a women that is that bitter she is just not ready to find someone to love, she needs to love herself and get over the shitiness of the past to move on and be a women that the guy of her dreams will fall in love with.
Each of these three women has something that makes them special and amazing , I see it why do they not see it. Maybe my new job can be to be a motivational speaker, to make the women of the world love themselves weather they need to lose 10lbs or they have a few grey’s or they have a 5 year old daughter. There is going to be that one man that wouldn’t want them any other way. Will want them for who they are and what they bring to the table. That man will not care if you have kids, if you are smarter then them, make more money or just plan clumsy.
So I have been spending time taking and uploading pics for these gals, and looking over there profiles for any red flag wearing sentences. They want a guy to say wow I have to contact this women right now……
I think I may have found a new living…But for now I will go to work and push children’s books, spend my nights cleaning my house and working my ass off !!!!!

Here I am Monday evening once more. Today we had off so here I am at home, Just went to Weight Watchers and I am not happy with myself this week, not at all. But this is a new week and I can start over once more.
Neil just left, sucks I hate when reality comes and he has to actually leave and go home. Makes me wish it was always a weekend.
Not much this weekend, we chilled and just had a relaxing weekend, yesterday it was snowing and cold so staying in and watching movies was the way to go. Today was windy, cold and sunny. Made it to the Gym, Nashoba Winery and Mexican food ( that was the bad idea)

So here I am not much new……

I just wrote and lost the whole posting that I was putting in for today…GUrrrrrr

Anywho….Off with my day and hoping the snow ends…..

I hurt so bad and I was stupid about a couple pills I took last night. I had left work yesterday to go home and then head to the gym to work with Joe the Trainer. At this time a headache was approaching so I took a Vicadin . This made my head bearable through out the time of the hour long extreme workout. Got home took a shower and my body was already cramping up and sore. Been along time since I have worked with him and last night he was going on and on about how great I was doing while I was training with him in the spring and summer.
Well the workout kicked my butt so much so I took a muscle relaxer about an hour later.
Then in the next hour or so I decided that it was time to head to bed and took a Sleeping Pill (ambien) and headed to bed a half hour later.
Well can you say I had a real hard time getting up this morning and my body feels kinda drained. Can’t wait until lunch should help to get some food in my system.
No more stupid multi pills in one night- nights

After great disappointment of the TT crew I will state here and now..
I DO HEART PEANUT BUTTER
Anything peanut butter !!!!! Spoonfuls of Peanut Butter and Peanut Butter Goodness on my Yummy Bagels…
I love Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups….The giant peanut Butter cups at Uno’s …..Peanut Butter and Banana’s and Peanut butter Hershey Kisses…
I love all that is Peanut Butter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But because of my recent diet I have taken most of the Peanut Buttery goodness out of my diet…sniff sniff

Sometimes I wish I was someone else.
I do I have wished for the obvious and I have wished for random, but to just be someone else would make we one happy gal.
I have wished to be thin, I have wished to be pretty ( the most I will ever truly be is cute, but cute is always cute even at 60) I have wished to have been born into a family with high social status, to be the trust fund kid, to go to a great art school. I have wished for so much.
To be someone else would be simply wonderful.
Is there a way to change everything on the outside of you but still keep the inside, would I still try so hard to get by on being creative, funny and a slight jackass if I was 5’11 115 lbs and hot. Would I still be able to hold onto the Crystal that I do very much like. The person I am within!!
I always wanted to be the hippest of the people I knew, I wanted to be the one to say the witty comments and to be the most creative/individually minded person.

The first one is putting the measurements and weight combination I wish I was and the 2nd is right about where I am now….
I wish it was just looks that would make me feel truly pretty but I think much more. I am clumsy and not always the suave gal I want to always be….
Oh well…..