Goodbye to 2005

Since I was little I have loved New Years, it was a time of reflection, time of change and a time to move on with a clean slate. At this point I am almost 100% clean slated, I have caught up on all my bills, reinstated a healthy diet and still working out even if in the winter months it is down to three times a week and not six.
This has not been an easy year by any means, but I look at me last year at this point and I know I have come so far. Personally I like who I am once more, my self esteem has been boosted and I am happy.
I wrote my thirteen list yesterday hoping to keep it all positive. But there was changes that made life hard for me this year as well as great. But being the optimist I am I will stay positive.
New Years last year was filled with friends over having a great time, in the tail end of a relationship that wasn’t going anywhere and uncertainty as to what this year was going to bring.

In the end it gave me my life back, does anyone know how hard it is to get out of something you thought you never would. I felt relief and free for the 1st time in many years and it was amazing.
I allowed myself to meet new people, date a whole bunch ( to the point even my guy friends were like Crystal slow down) reconnect with old friends and just live once more.

I believe in living everyday as to not having any regrets, I live for the moment and I have stopped from planning everyday in my life. I think I am fairly spontaneous most of the time. I am up for anything at any time, except after I take a Ambien and start to fade into sleepy land and friends call for me to go out with them..

I am very much looking forward to this coming year, I think it will in whole be one of my better ones…Already starting it off well.