He says you are beautiful…He says you are his world..He says there is noone else for him ..As you go to leave he says he can not live without you..He takes your suitcase away as tears roll down your face. You try to be tough….You try to hold your own…You try to be the woman you once were before he made you into a coward. He looks at you with pure hatred and reels you in with love. You are so close to leaving You are so close to thinking that you are done. He tells you that you are nothing without him. He tells you that you will never find someone like him…..You believe him and you stay…..When he gets angry at at thing you say he scares you. backs you into a wall..He is larger then you….He is big and strong and you love him to much to fight back…The next day he says he loves you …That you are beautiful….That you will have a great future together..You blame yourself for what he does…..You think if only I kept my mouth shut…If only I didn’t question him….He betrays your trust and you are ready to leave again…When you finally do…He would do anything in his power to ruin you..What life you have built for yourself and you hope and trust in others….
This was written about 5 months ago. Seems like my feelings are still the same about the situation I was in for 5+ years….I am soo glad to be out and somewhat unscrapped..I am glad that I am who I am a strong woman that knows that she needs just to trust yourself.
I am trying to get to know this guy…A Guy that takes an honest interest in my life but is about as scared as I use to be to open up…Must have patience ..My ex had those with me..The only thing I thank him for was being the patient guy who let me come to him on my terms…
